Heal the root of your trauma and stress.
Expand awareness and realize extraordinary health, peacefulness, and self-expression.
Meet Your Copilot, Ryan 👨🏼🚀🚀
I support seekers, healers and therapists in expanding awareness so they can see deep enough into their minds to view and release the unconscious root of suffering.
In 2018, I reached my rock bottom of anxiety and depression, which led me to parachute out of Corporate America without a plan. As I began to trust my authentic self, a path of serendipity and discovery unfolded. My journey has led me to train with underground psychedelic guides, modern healers and meditation teachers from Vedic and Indo-Tibetan lineages. Through this transformative work, I have shifted from chronic disease to bodily regeneration, from suicidal thoughts to meditative joy, and from crippling shyness to vibrant self-expression, including playful antics as a polar bear.
My ongoing spiritual awakening continues to release suffering and bring deeper healing into my life. I now reside in an eco-village surrounded by wilderness that feels like a real-life Shire from The Lord of the Rings, and I celebrate under meteor showers at psychedelic micro-festivals of my own creation. Sounds way better than office life, right? Well, it totally is and and I know many others could thrive from embarking on their own journey of self-discovery. It's time to create the more beautiful life and world our hearts know is possible.
My Experience and Training
Meditation Experience
I'm a twice-daily practitioner of meditation practices of Vedic and Indo-Tibetan origin. I study diligently with meditation teachers John Churchill, Rupert Spira and Thom Knoles. With these teachers, I commit over five-hundred hours of study, trainings, retreats and practice per year.
Psychedelic Experience
Throughout each year, I continue my own personal journeywork and mentorship through working with psychedelic guides and attending group retreats and trainings. I have participated in years of underground, experiential psychedelic trainings with seasoned guides. Before I began guiding on my own, I apprenticed with two guides, assisting inside one-on-one journeys and group retreats.
Additionally, I've learned from Hakomi Mindfulness-centered Somatic Psychotherapy, parts work, energy work, and bodywork disciplines.
Nature Experience
I live in intimate connection with nature in a cob hut at an eco-village surrounded by national forest. I drink natural spring water from the land and source 100% of my food from farmers I know personally. Living in nature, drinking pure water and clean food has brought profound healing to my body.
Other Experience
I’m currently practicing the martial art, Aikido (the harmonious way), and dancing with contact improv and partner fusion forms and styles. On the eco-village, I’m learning how to build earthen living structures and how to not get kicked by horses.
Our Relationship
I refer to myself as a copilot because I wish to create a relationship free of hierarchical power dynamics, akin to the symbiotic union of sunflower and hummingbird. At the deepest level, I know that we both are one consciousness looking out through two sets of eyes. I serve as an ally, and I am a skilled copilot who has flown many deep missions in the spiritual development arena. My knowledge and skills come freely; monetary compensation supports my time and energetic contribution to our work together.
Tools I Work With
Heal and transform with the potent tools of meditation, nature and psychedelics. With intelligent integration, the combination of these tools transcends the sum of its parts.
Meditation
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Beginners perspective
A telescope needs a stable tripod to see clearly into the night’s sky. Meditation practice will stabilize and sharpen your ability to focus awareness and stay with the details of experience. Without this stabilization of your attention, you won’t be able to deeply inspect the nature and content of your mind, just as a poorly-focused telescope will not yield much insight about the nature of space.Advanced Perspective
Meditation allows you to become incrementally more established in your essential nature—consciousness. When you settle the mind and go beyond thought, you transcend the mind. You experience your essential nature, as consciousness, which is the source of thought itself. Resting in this state is known as Pure Consciousness or Pure Being. It is a state of supreme contentedness or wholeness. In this state of wholeness, your body enters a state of rest deeper than sleep where it can release irrelevant stresses and repair itself.
Becoming more established in a baseline of wholeness reveals that you already are the wholeness for which you seek because one’s essential nature, as consciousness, is already whole and complete. Upon this realization, the separate self can give up its search for completing its perceived incompleteness through the objective world of material pursuits, activities and relationships.
Nature
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Nourishing the body is foundational for spiritual growth. For any root structure to establish security and resiliency in its environment, it must have a nourishing environment. There is no separation; the health of the body is a direct product of the health of the environment.
Together, we’ll look at your relationship to food, water and sunlight and how you can build a regenerative body which repairs itself faster than any rate of damage. We will reconnect your body to its natural environment, attuning to circadian rhythms, sourcing food from regenerative farms and drinking wild spring water. Through rewilding your body you will become a regenerative force of healing, immune to disease and primed for spiritual growth.
Psychedelics
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Beginners Perspective
We use psychedelics to deeply introspect the content of the mind. Just as telescopes reveal the content of space, psychedelics reveal the content of mind. It's much more effective to look through a telescope to learn about space than to look through the naked eye. You can’t see what you can’t see and psychedelics reveal the unseen. Once the unknown is known, you can consciously choose the actions and behaviors which lead to less suffering and more happiness.
Advanced Perspective
Psychedelics are very effective tools for collapsing the identity of the suffering, limited self, thereby producing experiences of reduced suffering and a more liberated self.
Where is meditation relevant where psychedelics are not? Many people think psychedelics allow you to experience your essential nature directly, but this is a misconception. One’s essential nature is consciousness isolated by itself, aware of itself— also referred to as pure consciousness. Essential nature transcends time and space. It knows nothing but itself and it's not an exotic or colorful experience like the psychedelic experience. While psychedelics can certainly thin the veil of the content of mind that obscures essential nature, they don’t allow you to experience your essential nature directly, as pure consciousness. Instead, meditation is the appropriate tool for resting as the source of the mind—pure consciousness, our essential nature.
Our work together
We’ll explore the following areas utilizing the powerful tools of meditation, nature and psychedelics.
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Release Stress & Trauma
If you are on this planet, you are a survivor. The multi-generational stress load in the physiology distorts one’s perception of reality. When you feel awful and stressed on the inside, this inner experience gets projected onto external experience. The inner stress experience then becomes mirrored by an outer stress experience that reifies the inner stress experience. This negative feedback loop keeps you stuck in the same ever-repeating pattern of stressful thoughts, actions, and behaviors. As you purify the stress from your physiology, your experience shifts. Better thoughts lead to better actions and behaviors. Let’s spiral up instead of down. Let’s move from a life of surviving to a life of thriving.
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Reframe Old Stories & Remove Negative Beliefs
“The most important decision we make is whether we believe we live in a friendly or hostile universe.” -Einstein
Consciousness becomes what it sees. What you think, you become. You think you see reality but you only see the reality you’ve constructed. Through expanding awareness, you can begin to highlight and delete negative core beliefs that no longer serve the reality you wish to experience.
When you expand awareness, your perception of reality changes. You begin to reframe the hardships. Problems and difficulties seen from one perspective can be seen as gifts and the shaping mechanisms of growth from a wider perspective. You tend to label an event as "bad" when you don't know the next part of the story. Let's wait and see what this event looks like in hindsight. The "bad" event may have been just the thing you needed to catalyze a transformation leading to a state of thriving. After every dip in life, there is a rise. There is always another chapter. What can you alchemize? What past experiences can you turn into gold?
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Regenerate the Body
Your body is a print-out of your consciousness state. When you have happy thoughts, you print out a “happy” body. When you have stressed thoughts, you print out a “stressed” body. A stressed body is likely to be in a diseased state--a state of dis-ease. When you expand awareness, you become aware of the causes of good health and you see, with clarity, how the laws of nature influence bodily health. You see the relationship between bodily health and water, food, and sunlight. When the rate of regeneration and repair exceeds the rate of disintegration and damage, your body becomes a regenerative force of healing. Rewild yourself and reconnect with nature. Be part of the regenerative minority, instead of the sick majority. Achieve health outcomes not available within allopathic (Western) medicine.
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Cultivate Self Intimacy
Your experience with yourself will be as tender, compassionate, and loving as you intend and allow it to be. All outer relations come back to the relationship with the self—the inner work. It starts with a deep listening to hear the inner voice. When you heed its whispers and calling, you begin the journey of becoming whom you are meant to become. There is a cosmic plan for you. Cultivating a deep intimacy with self will reveal the blueprint of this plan.
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Expand Awareness & Reduce Suffering
Awareness, the unified consciousness field, is the source of all knowledge. Knowledge is embedded within awareness. As you expand awareness beyond the finite mind, more knowledge is held within your awareness. As you expand into more knowledge, suffering is decreased because you become more and more aware of all the actions and behaviors that result in suffering. Through expanding awareness and gaining knowledge, you can disengage from activities which result in suffering. Thus, life becomes increasingly frictionless — a smoother, more joyful experience.
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Express Yourself
You are the universe, embodied. As you expand awareness, release stress, remove negative beliefs, heal and cultivate an inner intimacy with yourself, life becomes more free and joyful. Established in a baseline of happiness, you now have the capacity to find outlets to channel your cosmic essence. Life is for living and expressing, after all. Where does your expression want to take you? Singing? Dancing? Sexual expression? Claim your joy. Claim your expression. There is no greater pleasure or service to the web of life than being yourself.
My Offerings
1:1 Support
Behind all desire is the desire for peace and happiness. Work with me 1:1 through through hourly sessions and daylong psychedelic journeywork to cultivate deeper peace and happiness. Schedule an exploratory call to learn more.
1:1 Campout
Fasten your seatbelt! Join me for 3-nights in remote nature. Together, we’ll blend meditation practices, two psychedelic daylong journeys and rewilding experiences to catalyze deep transformation. Learn more.
Micro-festival
Join me, my crew and eight participants in remote nature for a 5-day psychedelic micro-festival experience, exploring intimacy and play. Experience the beauty that unfolds when community medicine ceremony, modern ritual and music festival merge together as ONE. This offering is currently invite only. Schedule an exploratory call to learn more.
Who Are You?
These offerings are for you if you are ready to…
Reclaim your health and live free of health symptoms and medical diagnosis
Experience a spiritual-holding of this work rather than a clinical-holding
Leverage meditative tools to stabilize higher consciousness experiences as permanent traits rather than temporal states
Move towards pain and suffering as a pathway to joy and happiness
Experience the healing power of nature
